Happiness hits my whole being as I reflect on my 2014.
I must say, I am so excited! This is because, this has been an year walking with God, He has walked with me, so close, step by step and it’s like I am realizing this as the year ends and I never thought I would get here.
I must say that my year started vague, it is very rare for me to not remember at least a highlight from early in my year.
The river of life is one of the most important highlights of my year which is so important to my life. As I drew it up deep in the heart of Laikipia-my place of peace, it began a profound healing process in my life. This is a concept which was introduced to me by a mentor- Mrs. Warigia Hinga, she presented it so candidly, passionately and effectively that it opened a doorway of self discovery in my life, I never thought possible.
On 27-08-2014, I had the most beautiful day with the sunset. I have had many beautiful sunsets this year, especially one that God used to speak volumes to my life but there’s something about this day that got to the window of my soul. I thank God for these moments.
I have had the happiest days yet with my family, I cannot remember an year we have laughed so hard, talked so deeply and been so connected. I thank God for these blessings.
A shout out to my dad, for proving to be the strongest man I know, for being relentlessly passionate for the work of God and for being a great father. I remember a time I was so discouraged that things were not working out for a project I began and when I sighed one day that I wasn’t going to make it, he told me, “Nancy, don’t say that, God is with you and things are going to work together for good” Well, this might have been a usual encouragement line, but there was something about the way only a daddy could say it, let’s just say, it got my heart back.
I had the most beautiful birthday this year, it was a beautiful Sunday, the sun was out, there was such a peace in my heart and I swear God was smiling! I was surrounded by the amazing warmth of friends and priceless smiles and gifts only family could give.
God brought beautiful chances and surprises! I got to live my mission through serving great Visions! When God clarified to me my mission in life, I thought, yeah right, this is just one of those change the world stuff but when I remember how once I had a near death experience, I can never deny how it felt feeling unfinished, so I trusted God for the opportunity and He made me brave for the challenges, through Him I reached out and changed lives. He truly makes all things beautiful.
This year, I have had those moments that I have been wowed and awed at long time friends who have stuck it out. Every time I was catching up with a friend this year, there was a sense of growth, appreciation and fulfillment- many many smiles on my heart.
The best sermon this year was “Perception and Expectation” by my very own daddy. I remember that bitter cold Sunday morning when he stood to give the morning devotion, it’s like he was removing some cover over our eyes and I was left forever changed, very powerful message.
I have also had a fair share of setbacks this year, some derailing and some heavy. I remember having to walk out on a job opportunity twice because deep down I knew I had to stay true to my mission. God is amazing because He divinely placed people, moments and chances in my path to help me through and the end of it all, He rewarded me with the most perfect job, totally in line with my mission, an amazing director- an out of this world leader I am looking forward to learn from! I always wipe tears from my face, I wasn’t crazy, I stuck to my heart, My God truly rewards crazy faith!
On the flip side I have read quite the collection of books this year my 3 all time favourite have been; ‘The Alchemist-Paul Coehlo’, ‘Decision Points- George W. Bush’ and ‘Wild at Heart- John Eldredge’.
Preachers of LA has been one of those out of this world reality TV I never thought preachers could pull off. When it is all said and done, the one thing that stuck with me is how these men of God reach out to people in the most profound ways, how God has changed their lives and how He dynamically comes out through them.
One big thing that stood out for me, which was so unexpected and so important to my heart is how God has walked with me. I always prayed to get to know God, like be interested and eager to know Him like a friend, have time for Him and learn from Him, I thought it was kind of far-fetched but at the end of this year, when I was drawing up my river of life, He began to show me highlights and moments in the year He spoke to me, been there, came through and the lessons.
God has been my biggest highlight, He has brought beautiful surprises, inspired sermons that matched a need in my life, the 3D love story, beautiful sunsets, travels, changing lives by using me, the sermon by Joel Osteen ‘Finishing Grace’, through opportunities, through my mentors, through moments of happiness with family and friends.
Throughout the year, I have crawled, I have ran, I have walked, my eyes have fought to look ahead. I wonder how I made it, I wonder how I never gave up, I wonder how I reached this place, I never thought I could see this day, Sometimes I thought I was alone, as I look back, I can see the footprints of 2014, there was 2 of us, all this time, His hand was clutched in mine, walking with me.
As I smile at the year ending, I think of Lenny Leblanc’s song,“ You have been so good, You have been so good to me….” This is my most heartfelt song to my God.
As I ponder on the lessons and the future, the words of the late Dr. Myles Munroe are engraved in my heart, “when you die, die empty”
written with love and passion